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RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Our MasksThe masks we wear are perfect
Never loose and rarely tight
They keep us safe from others
And keep our demons out of sight

They smile when we are broken
And laugh when we simply must
No blemish or imperfection
A creation that will never rust.

I seldom ever remember
Who I am without my mask
That to peel off that layer
Is such a daunting task

All others carry one as well
Wherever they may go
And no matter what is on their minds
Only the molded mask will show.

The lies they preach in public
Or the scars along their wrists
Are left mute to others knowledge
Ignorance is such a splendid gift

My mask is oh so perfect
Not a crack will show
Alway

LonelyLonely.
Unnoticed.
People don't even look
when they walk by.
Always ignored...
Nobody even asks my ideas,
my opinion.
Nobody even knows
who I am.
When people see me,
they either ignore me,
or ask a question:
"Who are you?"
But they don't even bother
to listen to my response:
"I'm Canada."
Forgotton.
Forgotton by everyone.
Forgotton by my friends, my allies.
Maybe one day
Someone will remember my name.
Canada.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Ode to the boy with diamonds for eyesI think we were a collision course waiting to happen
And when I think back to the day when we first
Stumbled across one another, red sneakers hanging off gutters
Cherry cola voice overs and dilated pupils
We led one another on to believe in the night sky of connect the dot constellations

You wanted to dissect me and peer into the insides of my lungs
Only to find witches breath and dandelions
Slicing iron vowels you locked your hands in mine
And we fell into the static of dreaming disease
The operating table broke away to reveal a sky that never existed
And we couldn't help but laugh at the irony
Because wishing was never an option
The ane

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

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The way you speak to me.
The way you let me know everything's gonna be ok.
The way you tell me that I'm beautiful.
The way you make me forget the pain.
Your laugh.
Eyes.
Face.
The way you worry.
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I'd Say I'm In HeavenThere's so many things I'd like to erase, there's a lot of things I can't say to your face. I wish I could tell you how good it feels to hear your voice, and that I'd give away anything, trade everything just to be next to you. I can't find the words to tell you all that I want to. But I'll give it my best try.

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You're eyes are beautiful.
Your laugh is amazing.
And it melts away the pain.
You're everything that I'd ever need
Anything I'd ever dream of that would be real love.
I'd say I'm in heaven, but I'm far above.

I'd spend all my time running from the world that hated and never showed compassion like you do. I dream of ever

My dream.I fall asleep with sweet intentions of a dream of her.
I'm haunted by his face instead.
I'm walking down a path that's behind my house to the creek.
I hear footsteps behind me, I pick up speed. So do they.
I run, cutting through the brush and woods that surround me.
I fall, cuts on my legs and arms.
A shadowed man stands over me.
"Run.." It whispers, I stand and run again, to be quickly grabbed from behind.
His hands grabbed at my breasts, and his leg went between mine.
I was crying, hard. I was screaming for help, but no one came.
I had never felt so terrified.
I feel something tugging at my pants, I look down to see his hand t

I hate you.Do you know what you did to me?
The countless worries.
The terrifying nightmares.
The realistic feel of your hands on my body.
The ghost of your touch is driving my sanity away.
I'm slowly dying.
I hate being touched.
Physical contact is scary to me.
So what am I supposed to do when my girlfriend wants a hug?
Hm?
Can you tell me that?
Tell me what was going through your fucking head?
In that sick as hell imagination of yours.
I hope you fucking die.
I really do.
You have no idea what you did to me.
I
Hate
You.

So here's all I have to say.
Roses are red
Violets are blue.
You hate my guts
And I hate yours too.

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You said, I said, God said

by ~Lovestowrite123, Oct 4, 2011, 7:13:38 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

You say it's disgusting.
I say there's not a thing wrong with it.
God says it's a sin.

You say it's wrong.
I say it's right.
God says he accepts us all.

You say you will decide.
I say it's my life.
God says he's the only one to pass judgement.

You call it sinful.
I call it amazing.
God calls it love.

You don't want me to feel colors.
I want to see them all.
God created the rainbow.
Why am I not allowed to embrace it?

You said, I said, God saidby ~Lovestowrite123

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~PandaSaysRawr Oct 5, 2011 Hobbyist General Artist

aaaaaaaaaamen

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~DroUltrinnin-61 Oct 5, 2011

Are you a Christian?

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~Lovestowrite123 Oct 5, 2011

Yes i am

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~DroUltrinnin-61 Oct 5, 2011

Good, keep your faith and listen to God, may He bless you.

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~Lovestowrite123 Oct 5, 2011

And you too

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*Fumechi Oct 4, 2011 Hobbyist Digital Artist

I come to the homepage to see this...
This is exactly how I feel when I meet people like that...

(I'm bi, not straight, or les, but...yeah.

)

I love it.

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~Lovestowrite123 Oct 4, 2011

thank you (:

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*Fumechi Oct 4, 2011 Hobbyist Digital Artist

You're welcome.

*doesn't want to get deep into her thoughts, for fear she'll start a debate with some random person to comment on this comment*

Ignore that, lol

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~lostinlove15 Oct 4, 2011 Student Writer

I like it.

So very true.

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~Lovestowrite123 Oct 4, 2011

yay

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