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RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Our MasksThe masks we wear are perfect
Never loose and rarely tight
They keep us safe from others
And keep our demons out of sight

They smile when we are broken
And laugh when we simply must
No blemish or imperfection
A creation that will never rust.

I seldom ever remember
Who I am without my mask
That to peel off that layer
Is such a daunting task

All others carry one as well
Wherever they may go
And no matter what is on their minds
Only the molded mask will show.

The lies they preach in public
Or the scars along their wrists
Are left mute to others knowledge
Ignorance is such a splendid gift

My mask is oh so perfect
Not a crack will show
Alway

Ode to the boy with diamonds for eyesI think we were a collision course waiting to happen
And when I think back to the day when we first
Stumbled across one another, red sneakers hanging off gutters
Cherry cola voice overs and dilated pupils
We led one another on to believe in the night sky of connect the dot constellations

You wanted to dissect me and peer into the insides of my lungs
Only to find witches breath and dandelions
Slicing iron vowels you locked your hands in mine
And we fell into the static of dreaming disease
The operating table broke away to reveal a sky that never existed
And we couldn't help but laugh at the irony
Because wishing was never an option
The ane

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

LonelyLonely.
Unnoticed.
People don't even look
when they walk by.
Always ignored...
Nobody even asks my ideas,
my opinion.
Nobody even knows
who I am.
When people see me,
they either ignore me,
or ask a question:
"Who are you?"
But they don't even bother
to listen to my response:
"I'm Canada."
Forgotton.
Forgotton by everyone.
Forgotton by my friends, my allies.
Maybe one day
Someone will remember my name.
Canada.

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

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For him to stop and let her leave.
He only grins, whispering with care,
"We're friends wit benifits" as though there were love in the air.
He asked me what he's done so wrong,
Why I left him as a friend, why I left after so long.
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In a perfect world people would always be happy.
Colors would be shinging.
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No stupid and smart.
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For my beautiful girl -Love CheyenneStephanie,

There are not enough words
I can use
Or actions
I can show
To try and begin to explain
The love I have for you
I fall even more in love though
Every day you say good morning
Or smile that beautiful smile
Or look at me with those heart melting eyes
I can barely contain myself when I see you
I want nothing more but to be with you
Is that so selfish?
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You, in general, are just breath-taking
I hope you know that
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Madly
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and
Deeply
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Beauty IsBeauty isn't the stars at their brightest.
Beauty isn't the velvet sky across the morning horizen.
Beauty isn't the white sand on the ocean.
Beauty is her.
Beauty is her smile, her laugh, her hugs and kisses.
Beauty is all that is her.
Beauty is those endless hazel eyes.
Beauty. Is. You.

I Wanna Be Your EverythingYou were sitting on the edge when I found you. Eyes gazing on into the unknown. The darkness about to consume you, I grabbed your hand and by some chance, you started to stand.

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I wanna be your strength when you are weak.
I wanna be your smile when you are in tears.
I wanna be the one to fight off all your fears.
I wanna be the sunshine, when all you feel is rain.
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Will you love me?

by ~Lovestowrite123, Aug 13, 2011, 2:57:49 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I lay there listening to her voice, when I suddenly start to cry. She's starting to get afraid. Worried. Helpless. I hate that. I feel so weak, pathetic, whiney, everything you can think of. She's so patient with me though, she's reminding me to breathe, and that everything's gonna be ok as long as she's there. I don't know how it got started but I spilled everything to this girl. My whole life story in complete misery and tears. I tell her how much I've hated myself, how long it's been since I thought of suicide, pain. I stop, listening to what seems like the never ending silence. She's breathing heavily now, choppy sentences slip off her tongue. Now I'm scared.

I hate when people pitty me, I hate it when I make them feel my pain. Normally I'd refuse to even say a thing about what's wrong to anyone. And I don't know how she does it, but everything came out at once. Her sweet voice suddenly broke the silence. Telling me I'd never be alone again, that I'd never have to conquer anything on my own. And that even if it takes forever to do, she'll fix my broken heart. I can't help but feel loved, wanted, needed, cared for. Everything that's....good. I haven't felt that way in a long time. But I don't want it to stop. The countless hours I spend talking...just talking to this girl seems to make everything go away. The way she promises to take me away from this place, and make me happy. The way she laughs whenever I become flustered, the way I can feel her smile as I tell her how my day went. How I'm feeling. The way she tells me I'm beautiful and makes me believe it. The way she says 'I love you' with such sincerity and love. My heart melts each time.

I can't explain what exactly is going on. What magic power she has over me, the protection I feel just from her voice. I can't. It's impossible. But it's the most amazing feeling I will ever want to experience. I've never gotten love or attention from anyone that wasn't just pure pity. She called me a couple of days ago just to leave a message about how much she loves me. I almost cried. Simple things like 'you're beautiful', 'I love you so much', made me so weak.

My hearts been broken countless times, and I've given up on finding the peices. But this is all I ask of you. Will you stay with me forever?
Will you tell me that you love me just to see me smile?
Will you help me get through anything?
Will you promise to never turn your back?
Will you...be the only thing keeping me here?
Will you love me?

Will you love me?by ~Lovestowrite123

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

for my wonderful, beautiful girl.
I love you.

~lostinlove15 Aug 13, 2011 Student Writer

I love you too

Always will.

~Lovestowrite123 Aug 13, 2011

forever and ever and ever

~lostinlove15 Aug 13, 2011 Student Writer

More than anything else

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